I am usually an optimistic person, who keep believes that things go on the right way, but there were times when I became pessimistic about my life. Everyone else can experience how it is when so many things happen – good and bad, but somehow you feel that things are not going well for you.
I’m keeping a diary, and I was keeping it since I was a child. At that time, I used to write into it possibly every single day. Just wrote all of my thoughts and feelings, and I didn’t – or just sometimes shared them with anyone else. Now in high school I don’t write too much. I simply don’t have time every day, but I think you could learn from what I wrote there once when I was upset.
I was completely pessimistic about my life, and then I forgot to think of how proud and thankful I can be for the life I’ve got; for my fulfilled dreams, for the people who love me, for smaller and bigger things I can be happy for, and especially for who I am. I love being myself, but sometimes I kind of forget that.
At the beginning of the Easter break, I felt so lucky and happy, because I could feel that spring literally began, and a lot of good stuff burst upon me, but now I just feel that I’m full of insecurities and unhappiness. Days are just passing away and my whole life’s just full of bullshits. I think I became another person during the break, and I don’t like this person. I don’t like her hair, I don’t like her personality and I don’t like her thoughts. She doesn’t know who she wants to be, she doesn’t know what she wants to do with her life. She feels so unloved and she’s quite unsure about things – every little thing.
Well, now she knows that nothing lasts forever. NOTHING! And she knows that life is incredibly short , and we don’t have enough time to do all those things that we want. So we have to keep it simple and just do the things we really need to do or love to do. We have to enjoy our life and never let the things run out of our hands. We have to try to plan as much as possible and never focus on people. Focus on ourselves! What do we want? Who do we need?
Don’t be interested in people who aren’t interested in you. Do what you want. Do it how you want.
Reading this, I realized I was motivating myself while I was suffering from hopelessness. When I’m sad I don’t believe I’m worth it, but I still try to make myself believe. Isn’t it just interesting? You should do it, too. You’re all worth it!
And now that I say this, you should listen to the song with an absolutely powerful and strengthening meaning. When I’m depressed I listen to this song, too. I get hope, and I get a bit motivated.
You should all try to find something that motivates you when you don’t feel really well, when you just want to forget about everything. You should know that your life is special, your life is the only one you have, so never forget to live!