Hello and welcome back my this month’s Fuzzable blog from yours truly! Exam season is approaching and it’s causing all sorts of feelings to arise. This gif perfectly sums it up.
In June for about 3 weeks, I’ll be taking my A2 exams. In total, I have 7 exams which are all either 2 hours or 2 and a half hours long. Luckily, I only have one on the same day as another but all the rest are spread out over the course of 3 weeks. If you’re interested, I have 3 sociology exams, 3 psychology exams and one hefty media exam.
As my final exams approach closer and closer as each day passes it dawns on me how important they are. I want to do well but there’s that part of me constantly telling me what I’m doing right now isn’t enough. Failure terrifies me. The thought of failing is one that’ll send me into a downwards spiral. So in turn, I try to focus on the positive outcomes, regardless of if I do well or not. I try to keep my options open for the worst case scenario, just to settle my conscience a little.
I don’t know about anyone else, but when I have deadlines or college work, anything along those lines, I restrict myself. I don’t like to do things which limit me being able to do my work. So I reside to staying at home. My rationality for it is that at least if I’m at home and I don’t do anything, I only have myself completely to blame and therefore don’t feel guilty about going out. It’s a bad habit I need to break. I’ve mentioned before how I’m not the best at balancing things, it’s always black and white where I can’t find a middle ground. Which I think is what’s happening here. It’s something I need to work on, for myself.
With the Easter half term coming up it gives me a load of time not spent either travelling to or from college to actually get a lot of revision done. I’ve started already but I’m not the best with revision techniques; I can never really find any that work for me. Hopefully, it all will count for something.