“Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck on a ferris wheel. One minute I’m on top of the world, then the next, I’m at rock bottom.”
Love, Simon came out in the UK on April 6th and I’ve been lucky enough to see the movie three times already. I saw a preview screening, went with my best friend and then went on my own. And, let me tell you, I’m struggling to put into words what this film means to me and why it’s so important to me.
I read Simon Vs The Homo Sapiens Agenda back in 2016 and it was such an important book to me. As a closeted bisexual teenager myself, I understood what Simon was going through. It’s absolutely terrifying being that person, terrifying when you don’t want anybody to know your secret. Trying not to show off any signs that you’re different and that you’re constantly thinking about it somewhere in your mind. And this book made me laugh and it made me cry and it was and still is so important to me. It’s the reason I came out to my family, it’s such a beautiful book. So, when I found out it was being turned into a movie, I was so excited.
The lead up to this movie is the most excited I’ve ever been. Apart from maybe Infinity War but that’s a blog post for another day. I saw the trailers and the reactions and I was crying because I was so excited. So, when my dad won tickets to go to a preview of it a couple weeks ago, I couldn’t believe it. It was so overwhelming. The first time I was pointing out things that were different, I loved most of the changes so I’m not mad, and I was just so happy that I was seeing this on screen. Again, I was laughing and I was sobbing because this movie hit me so hard. And, after it finished, my dad thanked me for telling him who I was and thanked me for convincing him that he needed to see this movie, he’s a huge John Hughes fan you see.
I saw it again a few days ago with my best friend. And, let me tell you, I loved it even more the second time. I sobbed more than I ever have at a movie, from sad tears to happy and proud tears. It made me realise just how important Simon’s story really is to me. The casting is so perfect, the story is so perfect, this movie is absolutely incredible. And, when I saw it for a third time, yesterday on my own, I was just absolutely gone. I LOVE THIS MOVIE.
Honestly, I wish Simon Spier was a real person so I could write to him and tell him how much him and his beautiful love story means to me. And, of course, Blue. I do feel like Blue is an underappreciated character in this story because he’s so sweet and loving and deserves every single bit of happiness. Again, I understand Blue. I understand why he was so scared to reveal who he was and why he freaked out when their emails got leaked. I understand everything and he’s such an important character not just to me but to other people too.
Leah is another character I love. I love book Leah more than movie Leah, for one thing, I didn’t like in the movie that they changed who she’s in love with but oh well.
“Sometimes I feel like I’m always on the outside, there’s this invisible line that I have to cross to really be apart of everything and I just can’t ever cross it.”
This line hit me so hard because I feel it. Even now I feel like that. I have such incredible friends and family but sometimes I still feel like I’m on outside looking in that I’m never going to cross that line. I teared up at this line every single time because I know how that feels, I still know how it feels and I think that everyone knows how this feels somewhere along the line.
I guess, what I’m trying to say with this whole post is, please, please go and see Love, Simon. And read the book. They are both incredible stories that deserve to be shouted from every single rooftop because it’s the most beautiful love story. It’s a love story that is going to help thousands of people and teach people no matter what, everyone deserves to be exactly who they are and who they want to be. That we can all exhale now. That we are us and nobody and nothing is going to change that.