Katrina
It’s July 16 and I’ve left this blog post to the very last minute, which is so unlike me. However, recently I’ve been feeling so unmotivated and uninspired.
The past week in particular seems to have drained me of all energy including my love for writing and life in general. I’m going to put it down to a problematic week in my day job, but it still frustrates me that I’ve let it affect something which I adore doing. With my writing to-do list piling up, I’ve literally been coming home from work miserable and then staring at the laptop screen blankly for several hours. After prioritising scrolling social media endlessly and playing Mahjong (the ultimate form of procrastination), by midnight or later I’ve maybe pushed myself to cross one thing off my list if I’m lucky.
My day job has seriously made me doubt myself as a person over the past few days. It’s made me doubt my character and my ability, and the one element that usually keeps me sane in work (as sane as you can be in a charity shop) has turned out to be not so great after all. Knowing that I try my very hardest, but that my best isn’t always good enough is something which is tough to take on board.
I’ve also let that mindset take over my belief my writing ability. On one hand, this week has made me more determined to continue working hard so that I can pack in my job and write for a living. However, on the other hand I also seem to be sitting under a huge cloud of doubt which is ready to rain all over my hopes and dreams. I normally love being asked to write about certain songs or artists, but this week I’ve really felt under pressure. Knowing that I HAVE to write something makes it worse and I’ve taken on more and more tasks without getting anywhere. To get out of that mind frame, I normally like to write about something of my choosing first in order to kick start my motivation, but not even that has worked for me.
I’ve made some progress today, which is a miracle, although every task has taken at least three times as long as it should have. Tomorrow marks the start of a new week and hopefully I can fully get out of this little uninspired rut.
Do you have any tips on how to regain some motivation? Drop a comment below if so! 🙂
