What is love? What is lust? Is there a difference? Can one turn into the other? How do these feelings develop? And do they ever go away? These are just a number of questions I have been battling with for the past month or so. If you want to get to know more about me personally, check out my first blog post, on who I am.
Whilst writing this blog post, my iTunes shuffle player decided to play Gravitonas’ “Love Hurts”, which features Kallay Saunders. Which definitely leads up to my next few questions… Why does love hurt? Why does lust hurt? Does each of them hurt the same? Or does each hurt get progressively more deeper the older you get?
Listen to Gravitonas’ “Love Hurts” whilst reading this blog post:
Regardless, my life has never had someone in it long enough for me to explore the difference between love and lust. And, yeah, maybe that is my own doing, in wanting perfection in the guy I choose to be with, and I expect nothing less. I’d actually rather be single for the rest of my life than be with someone I’d settle for. It might seem lonely, and it probably will be at times, but that’s just how I am.
The word “love” has been said in both of my two relationships; both of which lasted a week and a half. I dealt with each of them differently, purely because there were separate circumstances involved, but they both hurt just as much as the other. Ice cream is my go-to food to eat when feeling this way, and I only ever eat ice cream when I’m feeling down – which is why I never have ice cream in my freezer, as I usually have a smile on my face.
Listen To Carly Rae Jepsen’s Song “Your Type” Here:
There have been many other guys, some I’ve dated for a long time and others for a short time. Some have hurt way more than others, namely the most recent. This person captured me in every way possible; to this day, I can’t describe the way he made me feel. I thought about him all the time, and he’s still within my thoughts, no matter how I push them away. It wouldn’t have worked between us, we both knew it, he wasn’t the perfection I was seeking, but I believe he was a much-needed step towards perfection. I’ll get there. I’ll find my one-true-love, I just got to give it some time.
How people leave crushed hearts in their wake, I’ll never know. Orianthi’s song “How Do You Sleep?” cuts deep within me whenever I hear it. She means those words and I know plenty of people who needs to hear this song.
Listen To Orianthi Sing About A Question We All Wonder “How Do You Sleep?”:
To me, love and lust could be the same thing. I think everyone has the potential to become something with someone else, you just need to find those emotions within and unleash them on that one person. I also believe that if it’s meant to be, then it will work; and if it’s not, then it won’t.
However, work is needed to achieve this, you can’t just let people who you have potential with, to just slide right past you. Chances are always thrown in your face, to give you confidence, to give you butterflies, and to give you an actual shot. Don’t let that one person be the one that got away, unless that was what they were meant to be. Don’t leave “what ifs” in your wake, unless you’ve actually gave that chance the shot it deserves.
So, take the deepest of breaths, and consider each day your chance. Be yourself, but also be confident. There is someone for us all, you just have to believe it.