Well, hello again. It’s been a while. Life has been a little crazy the past few months – and the most terrifying thing is that I’m graduating college in May. Granted, I am also very excited. I used to be one of those annoying people who loved school, but college has changed that for me, and I can’t wait to be done. But being done means having to go be an actual adult for once – one that needs health insurance and a job. I’ve come to the conclusion that the future is scary, and while I’m excited to see what it has in store, I can’t stop freaking out about it.
The Future Is Scary
Let me give you a little background information: I graduated high school a year early when I was 17 because I skipped a grade back in elementary school. Like the good straight-A student that I was, I went to college right after high school. Due to some transferring credits and other circumstances, I ended up with enough credits to graduate college a year early.
Now I’m 20, with a future diploma in hand in a mere three months. Telling people that I’m going to graduate soon often leads to the inevitable question, “What are you going to do after graduation?” The answer is usually me shrugging and muttering something incoherent about writing. Occasionally it’s me crying because I don’t know what the future holds.
I think my problem (well, one of my problems) is that I’m too interested in everything. I can see myself going down multiple career paths and being satisfied and happy with all of them. Therefore, I have a lot of trouble narrowing it down and picking exactly what I want to do.
Another problem is that I know I don’t want to stay in the town I’m currently living in. My dream has always been to move to New York City and pursue writing out there. Half of my brain is telling me that I’m young and I might as well take a shot while I still have the chance, and the other half of my brain is telling me that it’s the worst idea in the world.
The Future Is…Scary?
I guess you could say I’m at an impasse. I have no idea what to do after graduation, and I have a lot of anxiety about finding a job and, y’know, actually being a functional adult. But hey, I’m looking forward to seeing what life has in store.