Fuzzable
So, 2017. The year is coming to an end.
I’m not really one for setting New Years Resolutions, but I think it’d be nice to reflect on the past 12 months; looking back on what went well and what didn’t go so well, and what I can learn from all of it to make next year better.
One of the most important things I think that happened to me this year was completing my A-Levels. I began them in 2015 and finished them in July this year. The courses I took was in media studies, sociology and psychology. No matter how many times I have and probably still will complain about my A-Levels, I did thoroughly enjoy them.
Despite all that, they were a lot of work. My first year results weren’t quite what I was expecting. In a way this was a good thing because it made me work even harder during my second year. I didn’t fail in my first year but I felt as though I had let myself down, and I didn’t want to feel that way again. The majority of my time outside of college was writing up notes and doing revision. In the end, I managed to get an A and two B’s which I’m very proud of.
Another big thing that’s happened this year is some of my friends going to university. It doesn’t directly affect me but it was, and still is, strange to me. It’s not strange that they’re at university, but more so that they’re not in our town anymore. They come back home occasionally and during the holidays, etc. But regardless of that, I still tend to think, “oh, they’re in a completely different city to me, this is weird”. It’s probably a whole lot more to take in for them than it is for me!
Like mentioned at the beginning, I’m not one for setting New Years Resolutions, but I like to have some vague goals in mind that I can work on throughout the year. A thing I’d like to work on is taking risks. More in the way where I go out of my comfort zone a bit; pushing myself that little bit further to pave the way to where I want to be. Another one is to work on my self-esteem and confidence. No matter how many times I say to others how they should love themselves for who they are, I can’t do it myself. And no matter how many times I say to not compare yourselves to others, I still end up doing it to myself. This is something that might take longer than another year, but it’s something I do really want to work on.
Throughout the whole of next year, and in the future generally, I want to write more. I don’t want to write just for the sake of writing things, but because I have so many ideas that hardly ever are completed. I’d like to be more creative in general; making things, no matter how amateur they might be at first. I really want to take writing more seriously, but forming articulate and descriptive sentences can be damn hard sometimes!
I think I’ve learned a bit more about myself this year. Some of it I need to work on and change for the better, some of it I’m proud of, and some of it I’m still processing. Some of these things I haven’t talked about to many people, if any, and I want that to change; I need that to change. But it’s going to take me some time. Hopefully, the fresh year can help me bring about that change.
With all that being said, I wish everyone Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year!
